I think it is worth repeating... your meaning of life... and do you believe what is coming out of your mouth?
I wrote about this in the past but it is becoming more and more apparent that maybe this guy knew something at a very young age that many of us haven't yet discovered. When Riese, my son admitted to me that he had discovered what the meaning of life was... I did what all mother's do... oh really what is it? I have been on a journey of self discovery for several years and now my 17 year old son was going to tell me the meaning of life. "Find YOUR meaning of life," he said to me. It was spoken in such simple terms it took a minute for it to sink in. You can imagine my surprise, this is from my son, a teenage boy! Most of our conversations were movie quotes and jokes him and his friends had pulled. Nothing quite so profound had been spoke between us until now.
I think about this often and I have shared it with many people. You can see it behind their eyes. They are not on the path that they thought they would be on. Their life is not what they thought it would be and I can see that they are so much bigger then they can. I can see that because someone saw that in me. Somewhere along the way I had gotten lost. I guess I could have decided to just stay where I was and go with the flow, all the while thinking there was noting I could do. But, I didn't, I started surrounding myself with people who had had a tragedy in their life as well, but they were doing something about it. Now I know that when they looked into my eyes they saw the same thing they had seen in their own reflection many years before. I had lost hope! How could I help my family, my friends, my self with no hope. We see it ever day behind people's eyes. It is not about the words that are coming out of their mouth, I know I was saying those same words, but they had no power because I had no belief in them. Ironically, I sat in a meeting a few weeks ago and experienced that very thing. I was listening to a person say the words but I could see in their eyes they did not believe it.
First... you have you figure out YOUR meaning of life? Second... do you believe what is coming out of your mouth?
We never know what to expect in life... sometimes the darkest moments become the brightest moments. Like you, I have had a life of ups and downs and at certain points in my life I wasn't sure if I could go get much further down.