I started thinking about how much I have changed on the inside and the outside over the past several years. When I bring it up to people they quickly say you were already a good person, or you were already beautiful. It is not what they could see on the outside, though that has certainly changed too. It was what I could feel on the inside that needed some work. I knew I wanted to change but I did not know where to start and quite frankly it seemed overwhelming and very difficult at first. It wasn't like anyone told me I had to change, I just knew that I wanted to. It wasn't that I was a horrible person, at least I didn't think that I was, however something told me deep down inside I had so much more to give. I realized I did not have right venue to do to do what I needed to do.
It was 2004 after my daughter had been in a near fatal car accident and my mom was diagnosed with cancer all within a week. My daughter and I had just drove to Texas to visit my mom in the hospital where she had been diagnosed with brain cancer. We drove back to Colorado on Sunday night and Tuesday my daughter was in a near fatal accident and they did not know if she would live through the night. At an all time emotional high my business was the last thing I was thinking about.
Remember I was living the dream and I owned my own business. I knew I needed to be with my mom and my daughter but my responsibilities to my business were demanding. I was fortunate because I was able to work from my home and I had amazing people around me helping me. However, I was not out building my business during this time. As you can imagine once the current projects dried up so did the income.
It wasn't like I wanted to be a different persona I just knew I could be a better person with death at my front door, my mom and my daughter my priorities started to change. I began thinking about how I could reconfigure my business so I could make money even if I was at the hospital with my daughter or had to travel to see my mom. My daughter lived but my mom passed four months after her diagnoses.
This morning I was thinking about how much has gone on in the past several years and the transformation and journey I have taken during that time. The image of a butterfly came to me. The process they go through must be hard, and yet easy because they all do it. I must be scary, and yet rewarding because look at the beauty and the coolest thing of all is they can fly.
Find your purpose... discover the person who is within you... bring them out and then fly!
Thanks for stopping by today and I hope this has helped you in some way.
We never know what to expect in life... sometimes the darkest moments become the brightest moments. Like you, I have had a life of ups and downs and at certain points in my life I wasn't sure if I could go get much further down.